Tuesday, October 5, 2010

A Visitor

Hello friends!  There are so many times I wish I could remove this screen and spend time with you face to face...especially over some super yummy Oregon Chai and maybe some chocolate chip banana bread!!  Yum!  Oh and especially right now boy do I need some company...if you haven't heard I am out here in this place called the wilderness...I know some of you are truly tired of hearing about it...imagine living it my friends?!?!

So if there are undertones of me whining in this post...well then have a sympathy moment for me and then move on.  (Smiling and thanking you across the screen!)

So out here in the wilderness I am truly soaking in some student -teacher time.  Me being the student and my Creator teaching some most amazing details.  I am hearing Him, seeing Him and experiencing Him.  He is all over this wilderness...shouldn't surprise me since He is the Creator of this place.  As I find myself months into 'this place', that's what I am calling it, 'this place'.  Some call it a season.  So you can if you like, but all I know is I am NOT calling it home.  For I am passing through.  I am purposefully going through it.  Learning, hearing, changing, shifting, renewing, resting, growing, repenting, all of the above I will do and more in 'this place', but I am not calling it home!

Being here gets lonely, especially for me, a people person like no other.  I enjoy people.  I enjoy seeing them, hearing about their stories, living vicariously through them as they go on vacations, I truly enjoy people.  So being out here in 'this place' gets lonely.  Now don't get me wrong and please hear my heart on this, I know God is with me, for He truly is the air I am breathing out here, and it is of NO disrespect or am I in anyway dishonoring Him.  But in my humanness I am lonely.

Being very small in comparison I have personally been able to experience what Jesus must have felt like in the Garden as He prayed for His Father to take this whole dying on the cross thing away from Him.  Loneliness is loneliness.

Last night I had a visitor.  Someone who has known me for many years. He has had a front row seat to view some serious life shifts within this shoe loving girl!  But he hasn't only been an observer. Rather he has been an investor into my life in many ways. 

Last night God allowed me to have a visitor out here in the wilderness.  And the visitor came, he stayed and he prayed with me.  I am praising Him for an Engineer who will trek out and meet a girl out here for a visit!

As I remain in Him I am trusting that He knows just what and who I need, and just why and when.


Kimberly said...

Oh, how I would love to sit and talk with you face to face over tea and chocolate chip banana bread. I would love to talk face to face about the Lord and how He works and all that He is showing you. I would love to hold hands across the table as we lift our hearts up to Him together.

Know that I am praying for you as you are in that place. And part of my prayers include praises for your precious husband. And praises that the Lord has purpose in every second He has you in this place.


From the Heart said...

Wouldn't it be wonderful if we all could be together, love each other, pray for each other and all get closer to the Father together.
You are so blessed to have a husband who senses your needs and sits and prays with you.

I have a wonderful husband (48 yrs last month) but sometimes he just doesn't follow what I'm saying or feel the same way I do. If I asked him to pray for me, he would.

Great posts you are doing.

Anonymous said...

I have sat and talked face to face with you and I like what you say and the things you talk about, but next time lets make it over hamburger gravy and taters. I'm in a place also, its called the world. I live in this world but I try not to let the world live in me. If only we could see time as God see's we would be with him already, but am I truly ready for that? He must not think so, and so he has a purpose for me. Wow what a ride :>} I Love you Ninnie

Lori said...

Nichole, to be sitting across and chatting about Jesus and His awe!!! Aaahh, would that be the best ever! Smile!!! Our little mouths would be going a mile a minute – nonstop! I’m just smilin’ thinkin’ ‘bout it, my friend!

This, ---Nichole…(what you wrote) --- “Learning, hearing, changing, shifting, renewing, resting, growing, repenting,” is what I want my everyday to look like, my every season, that God places me in. And, what you said, is so wise: “As I remain in Him I am trusting that He knows just what and who I need, and just why and when.”

Lord, thank you for writing our testimonies, the way you see fit. You, and only You know our tomorrow’s, and most certainly know, what is best for us today!

Thank you for granting sweet Nichole, one of life’s most treasured gifts: a praying husband! Today may we know you more than we did yesterday. May we be satisfied doing what you desire of us. May we not only obey you; but take pleasure knowing and trusting your way for us. May we worship and adore you in everything we do, today. May praises and thanks flow from our lips as we see you all around us.

Hugs sweet and precious friend – Nichole!

~*~KIMBERLY~*~ said...

I am relating today. I'm allowing myself to soak in HIS presence.

Cindy said...

There are many times in our earthly lives when God takes us to 'that place', the wilderness, a season, etc where lonliness seems to consume our very being, yet something within changes and we are Never the same.
Praying for you as God ministers HIS purpose and plan for your relationship with HIM. And then sets the course for you future in Him!!

Kristen said...

I would love to sit and talk w/ you face to face as well, sharing a cup of tea, some kind of pastry treat and sharing our Jesus!

Praying for you...