Monday, November 24, 2008

The kleenex, chocolate, did I say that time of the month

Today's post will be one that wipe the grin right off of Satan's face. For he does not want me to share this with anyone.

For many years I have went from month to month in fear of how my emotions will carry me. Will this be a "half a pan of chocolate brownies month" or will this be the full out need to visit the "Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory" field trip month?

I am sitting here typing this out for two reasons, one it is part of having the chains removed and stepping out into the light of freedom. Second it is out of obedience, for I believe God didn't write my story for my benefit. He wrote it to bring glory to Himself. And He has whispered to my heart....'Nichole there might be another person out there that needs to know they are not alone.'

So here it goes...

"Hi I'm Nichole and I can get not so nice and emotional due to a wacky amount of hormones that go rushing through my body each and every month!"

Each month I end up with a few days that feel very dark for me. Even in the bright sunshine standing outside in the middle of the day, it can feel very dark, gloomy, and depressing. Some months are just fine while others can bring me into a pit. I say things out of emotion, I am short tempered, I cry, and I can treat those closest to me not so nicely.

On Friday (scroll down to see the Friday Challenge) I asked God my question: "Why did you create me so hormonal?" Well Satan was the first to jump in with his answers. I heard Satan loud and clear "you are messed up Nichole, you are not good enough, who do you think you are, God cannot use you, you are an emotional basket case, this isn’t a real issue look around you all the other women are dealing with it just fine, this isn’t something you pray about and its definitely not something you talk about. "

I heard God respond to Satan's lies with:

"I made you just the way you are!"

I believe God has a purpose for the kleenex, chocolate, did I say that time of the month. I am seeking His purpose. I am seeking His will. I know that it is not His will for me to be in the dark, or for me to base my actions on my emotions and feelings. I know God wants me to love those around me. I know that this is not something He expects me to suffer through. He created me with emotions, they are built into my DNA, some are for loving those around me, for having compassion, and for encouraging. I refuse to listen to Satan lies. I refuse to sit in the darkness he brings and to allow him to smother me.

I choose to live in the light. Part of this choice to live in the light is writing this very post today. You see Satan would have me keep this all to myself and keep my pride mask on and appear that I am in control of everything. God has asked me to trust Him, to allow Him to remove the mask and to step into His light and to let the truth of His word set me free.

I am so thankful for a God who cares about every detail of our lives. I am thankful for a God who can take our "great big emotional, cried on dipped in chocolate questions" and answer them in His perfect timing!

The women that are joining me on this 40 day challenge to ask God "our question" are Heather, Edie, Pam, Sue, Susan, Joy, and Mom. I am committed to lift each one of you in prayer.

May this 40 day journey be one of asking our questions, seeking His answers and finding ourselves in a deeper relationship with our Creator!


Chatty Kelly said...

I'm going to go medical on you. ;-)

See I too was a PMS pal! My dr told me to take B6 and E vitamins. I'm like "I am SO sure that is going to help." He also prescribed a diuretic for the 7 days prior to, you know, that "time." IT WORKED!!!

So go buy the vitamins and some PAMPRIN or MIDOL for the diuretic. Trust me. But yes, God loves you anyway.

Anonymous said...

Still am sure PMS means pass more snickers :) and that chocolate is a blessing from God. All good things come from the Father...
I too am praying for all women. God is good to hear us. Nothing is beyond his desire to heal us. His word is needed to be claimed in truth.
the chains are gone we are set free....Claim it!
Love, Hugs, & Prayers
My song in my heart today will be climb, climb up sunshine mountain, I need to let his heavenly breezes blow on me...
Love Mom
May he also tousle your hair

Nicole said...

Hi Nichole! I hope your hormones calm down soon. I know all of us woman can relate! Thank you for being obedient to our Lord and typing this out! I love the 40 day challenge. I thought of you on SUnday when the Lord was giving me an answer to a question I asked recently. What an awsome challenge!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He wants to answer our questions but He can't if we don't ask. May we never be afraid to ask our questions to God. He loves us sooooooo much and wants to speak to us and answer us.

So much love from Nebraska! Hey, the suns out here today! Yeah!!!! I'll take that over the snow anyday!


More than Survival said...

I can relate to the hormone flux!! I'm in middle of it, now!! YUCK! I am going to try the B vitamins... I have heard that before. I am PRAYING and I am SEEKING in this 40 day challenge... God has asked me to do some things that my flesh doesn't want to do, but there is such FREEDOM in obedience!!!! Thanks for praying for us and I will pray for you!

My ADHD Me said...

Satan was SO far off when you heard him say "Nichole, You are Messed Up"!

You have brought so much love and knowledge to this group of bloggers. I'm glad you heard God set him straight. I will too.

Kimberly said...


I can so relate to this post. If fits perfect with The history section of "The Truth Project". We've been doing this for about 8 weeks now at our church. I've been learning to get closer to our Creator and have a deeper relationship with Him.

Praise God!

Kristi O said...

one thing I am learning, (I may be screaming and kicking but I am learning) is that God can handle, anything. He wants us to tell Him when its hard and when we don't feel well and I am praying for less chocolate and more grace. I used to have your same problem, the hormone level's were so diverse I was a different person. now I take the pill (the active ones) all the time and never have to have a cycle. I believe it was God giving my doctor direction when we discovered that. Just sharing what worked for me.

Sue J. said...

So Chatty Kelly and one of the pastors at my church both used the same Scripture verse in talking about dealing with the issue of anger. (In your anger, do not sin.)

Nichole, I've been angry about my submission problem....wanting to be assertive with someone, so as to help give our relationship some framework, yet not wanting to be angry so as to blow up the problem out of proportion.

God is taking me through steps, I think. Your challenge has come at just the right time, and I'm grateful for prayerful friends like you to help keep the focus on!

As for the PMS, thanks for stepping out and being bold! It's OK! I don't have any great words of wisdom, as they've all been said. Just never let Satan get that kind of foothold on you. You feel that coming on again, you just blog us ASAP; we're there for you!

Tiffany Stuart said...

I heard the freedom bell ringing! Thank you for being honest. I understand.

I'm moody for a few days a month. I'm learning which days to keep my stress and activity level down and my mouth shut.

We are loved as we are. Emotional. God knew we'd have days like these. On these days, He gave us chocolate.

His mercies are new every morning. Or on those days, every moment!

Thanks for being Nichole.

Kimberly said...

Hey, sweet friend!
I came by earlier today and yesterday, but did not have time to comment. Just wanted you to know, as you already see from these comments, that you are NOT alone. This is honestly a big area of struggle in my life right now. I will be lifting you up as I, too, seek some answers from the Lord.

Joining you in these 40 days of seeking His face, seeking His wisdom, listening intently for His voice on some matters.
You are a blessing!
And thank you for your prayers!
K :)

Leebird said...

Woo Baby! I like the sound of this post.....So there, ugly ol' devil!

Edie said...

Well I'm a little bit older than the rest of you (how I miss the days when I was the youngest in the crowd) and am nearing the end of that "time". It's been 5 months this time. WooHoo!

Ok this was not meant to gloat. I had some bad PMS days too. CK's suggestion is worth a try. I used to take and herbal supplement that helped. Also, I was worried that when I went through perimenopause that I would be a raving lunitic. Let me just say, there really is a light at the end of the tunnel. My emotions are more level then they have ever been in my life.

Thanks again for the challenge and for your prayers. Don't listen to the enemy.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving.

Jamie @ Purposeful Pursuit said...

Oh, the hormones...boy can I relate! Thanks for sharing so honestly...thanks for keeping it real.

ThreeGirlyGirls said...

Well, praise God that I'm not the only one who deals with this so badly!!

I loved everyone's responses and I agree it's totally a God thing but if there anything we can do to get through these times then let's do it!! On my face with you girl!

Kristen said...

You could be writing about me! Not only do I have the hormonal issues... but I suffer from endometriosis as well. Let me tell you... combining excruciating pain w/ a short temper, a bit of depression and PMS. Look out! Fortunately as my age grows in numbers that time of the month comes sporadically... unfortunately at times w/out notice.

Your comment about God's purpose for "that time of the month" hit me. I can use it as a reminder of how God, even in my pain of infertility is glorified. That I have listened to His answers to my prayers... it might be painful, but He is there to see me through.

Thank you for your honesty!!!

Joyful said...

Nichole, I love reading how God is working in your life. Wish I lived close enough to give you a great big hug! :o)

Thanks for praying for me. How that touched my heart to actually read those words on your blog.

My "first" :o) question was about the uncertainty of my husbands job right now. Sunday our Pastor spoke of God-Reliance or Self- Reliance. He actually referred to the current employment challenges and reminded us that God is in control and that we can trust Him. I still don't know what lies ahead, but I'm so thankful that God does and that nothing will be a surprise to Him. He sits on His throne - not pacing and anxious about tomorrow - but calmly overseeing and loving all His children. He is not worried and anxious and I need to trust His plans. I feel like such a burden has been lifted.

So...on to question #2 :o)

Love ya! Have a great Thanksgiving!