The kleenex, chocolate, did I say that time of the month

Today's post will be one that wipe the grin right off of Satan's face. For he does not want me to share this with anyone.

For many years I have went from month to month in fear of how my emotions will carry me. Will this be a "half a pan of chocolate brownies month" or will this be the full out need to visit the "Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory" field trip month?

I am sitting here typing this out for two reasons, one it is part of having the chains removed and stepping out into the light of freedom. Second it is out of obedience, for I believe God didn't write my story for my benefit. He wrote it to bring glory to Himself. And He has whispered to my heart....'Nichole there might be another person out there that needs to know they are not alone.'

So here it goes...

"Hi I'm Nichole and I can get not so nice and emotional due to a wacky amount of hormones that go rushing through my body each and every month!"

Each month I end up with a few days that feel very dark for me. Even in the bright sunshine standing outside in the middle of the day, it can feel very dark, gloomy, and depressing. Some months are just fine while others can bring me into a pit. I say things out of emotion, I am short tempered, I cry, and I can treat those closest to me not so nicely.


On Friday (scroll down to see the Friday Challenge) I asked God my question: "Why did you create me so hormonal?" Well Satan was the first to jump in with his answers. I heard Satan loud and clear "you are messed up Nichole, you are not good enough, who do you think you are, God cannot use you, you are an emotional basket case, this isn’t a real issue look around you all the other women are dealing with it just fine, this isn’t something you pray about and its definitely not something you talk about. "

I heard God respond to Satan's lies with:

"I made you just the way you are!"

I believe God has a purpose for the kleenex, chocolate, did I say that time of the month. I am seeking His purpose. I am seeking His will. I know that it is not His will for me to be in the dark, or for me to base my actions on my emotions and feelings. I know God wants me to love those around me. I know that this is not something He expects me to suffer through. He created me with emotions, they are built into my DNA, some are for loving those around me, for having compassion, and for encouraging. I refuse to listen to Satan lies. I refuse to sit in the darkness he brings and to allow him to smother me.

I choose to live in the light. Part of this choice to live in the light is writing this very post today. You see Satan would have me keep this all to myself and keep my pride mask on and appear that I am in control of everything. God has asked me to trust Him, to allow Him to remove the mask and to step into His light and to let the truth of His word set me free.

I am so thankful for a God who cares about every detail of our lives. I am thankful for a God who can take our "great big emotional, cried on dipped in chocolate questions" and answer them in His perfect timing!

The women that are joining me on this 40 day challenge to ask God "our question" are Heather, Edie, Pam, Sue, Susan, Joy, and Mom. I am committed to lift each one of you in prayer.

May this 40 day journey be one of asking our questions, seeking His answers and finding ourselves in a deeper relationship with our Creator!