Monday, February 16, 2009

Not Yet?

Hello to all my friends and family. Love to you! Yes if you are reading my blog consider yourself loved, not only by me, but by an amazing Creator.

I want to start by saying thank you to the people who are journeying on purpose in this life with me. There are many people who are praying on purpose!

I want to "warn" you before you read today's post that my heart is very solid in One thing, that's a relationship with Jesus!! However there are many questions, thoughts, and doubts that I have struggled with over this past month. So as you read this keep in mind, my Jesus and me we are tight and that will NOT be shaken!

As of today Monday February 16th I have had a constant headache since Saturday January 10th. A headache that gets worse after 10am in the morning. Some triggers include, noise, movement of my head, light, and using my eyes. My eyes will blur if I move my head to the side. I have an intense pain in my jaw, that obviously worsens if I eat...(helps me limit the brownies!!...just so you know a sense of humor and laughter is keeping me going :) My lower back is in constant pain, and will send out things like shocks that cause me to jerk from the pain. My legs/arms feel tired/heavy/weak, and my hands/fingers, feet/toes get numb and tingly feeling. These are some of the daily symptoms that have been ongoing for a little over a month now. We (I saw it this way because its not just me going through this as it has GREATLY affected my husband and boys), we are praying, taking supplements, and seeking medical care.

I don't include the above paragraph for any other reason than to share an update with those who are faithfully lifting this up to a God who cares deeply. I know He knows whats going on, I know He hasn't left my side for a second. I know He hears our prayers. I know He is working.

Dear Jesus hear my heart today, I wanna be used by You. I want to be the wife You need the Engineer needs standing beside him in this life, I want to be the mommy that the boys need so they can be in a relationship with You. I want to be Your servant, I want to build up Your kingdom. I want more people to experience, Your amazing grace and Your unending love for them. Thank You Lord for the purpose You have because I know it has eternity written all over it! I love You Jesus-Amen

10 comments:

Paula (SweetPea) said...

Thank you for the update. I had been wondering how you are doing. Your pain sounds so often mainly because of the consistency...never letting up. I pray you and your doctors find answers and diagnosis soon to aleviate this pain from your life. I praise the Lord for your joy, laughter, and faith.

Stay in His grip as you have.
Love,
Paula

Kimberly said...

I think you have an appointment on the 18th? I will be praying that answers will be found!

Your continued faith in Him and your heart that is still thinking of others and not just yourself (cause you sure have every reason that you could just focus on you!) is such a blessing to see!

Love and prayers,
K

Sharon said...

You are so sweet to update us, But you know God has a plan for each of us, not saying this is the part of the plan, but I do believe he is going to heal you from this, "believe" is the word I am suppose to tell you.
I am continuing to lift you up in prayer my friend.
Hugggggssss and Lotssss of Love to you, sending blessings that you cannot contain, shakin together that you will be released from all this pain.
Love ya

Sue J. said...

God is certainly working wonders in you with all that going on! Prayers that He will guide your medical team to a more complete cause this week and that you will find further relief through treatment.

Praises for His strength in you this many weeks! That He keeps you laughing. That your family is awesome! Whatever it is, He is there pulling you all through....

Chatty Kelly said...

Nichole - do you have a diagnosis? My friend's mom has similar symptoms and has been diagnosed with tic douloureux. Google it and see if it helps you.

God bless.

My Army Brats and Me said...

I am praying for you. You are wonderful and I am so glad that I have you as a friend.

Cindy

Joyful said...

Nichole, I would have never realized you were going through so much. It was just last week I read about your speaking opportunity and your little "red sweater". Friday you were challenging us all to sing! Reading this post today I see how the Lord has been carrying you and using you to bless others in your pain.

Sweet friend, I will be praying all the more. I see Kimberly has mentioned that you have an appointment on the 18th...tomorrow...I'm praying that you will get some answers.

Oh, how your life must give the Lord cause for praise as you honour Him in your struggles.

Love, hugs and prayers,
Joy

~*~KIMBERLY~*~ said...

I sent you an email!

Edie said...

I'm so glad you decided to share this information Nichole. I will continue to lift you up in prayer.

There's this part of me that wants to question, question, question what the doctors have done. I don't have a lot of patience for these kinds of things.

You are such a trooper girl. Dear Lord, please bring Nichole relief from these symptoms and the pain. Give the doctors wisdom and insight to provide quick and accurate diagnosis, and effective treatment. Let your Peace, that passes understanding rest on Nichole and restore her health. In the NAME of Jesus. Amen.

Love you!

Samantha @ the Listener's post said...

Hey Nichole - I'm still praying for you and loving you from all the way over here in TN. I just thought I'd mention that these symptoms sound a lot like someone I know who has multiple sclerosis(I can't spell) that was brought on by a tick bite of all things. I think it took them a very long time to figure that out for her!

I will continue to pray!